I kinda remember some things from the past... I think...
The number of rendering engines and raytracers I used to make and discard .... maybe a sign to bi-polar disorder.... ?
During my 20's I'd spend just about all my time in my house, either in my bed or on my computer. Either sleeping or coding... NEET's dream right?
My time in bed would be depressed, not wanting to do anything.
However, the time on the computer... well... I'd keep having this fantastic ideas and get all enthusiastic about them. How they're "gonna be great".
Two things I'd keep latching on to were Raytracing Engines and Game engines. Ultimately becoming the "Rendering Engine". I just love making pretty colours for the sake of it tbh.
So for 4,5,6 months I'd make a raytracing engine. In C++. Make some spheres, a plane, triangles, (this was version 1). Start adding textures, getting it all nice. Then realise... "nah this is crap, start again".
Then, the depression would set it. Maybe not for long, cos then I'd have another "Great idea".
Another few months on this "great idea", it could be another raytracing engine, maybe I plan it out this time, draw some nice little pictures. Maybe it'll be a game. I dunno.
A few months later, I may have got bored of this....
depression
Bang... another great idea.
again and again this cycle.
I thought I just had depression.
Never noticed the cycle
I just realised now, in the shower that I was cycling like this.
Crap.
The number of rendering engines and raytracers I used to make and discard .... maybe a sign to bi-polar disorder.... ?
During my 20's I'd spend just about all my time in my house, either in my bed or on my computer. Either sleeping or coding... NEET's dream right?
My time in bed would be depressed, not wanting to do anything.
However, the time on the computer... well... I'd keep having this fantastic ideas and get all enthusiastic about them. How they're "gonna be great".
Two things I'd keep latching on to were Raytracing Engines and Game engines. Ultimately becoming the "Rendering Engine". I just love making pretty colours for the sake of it tbh.
So for 4,5,6 months I'd make a raytracing engine. In C++. Make some spheres, a plane, triangles, (this was version 1). Start adding textures, getting it all nice. Then realise... "nah this is crap, start again".
Then, the depression would set it. Maybe not for long, cos then I'd have another "Great idea".
Another few months on this "great idea", it could be another raytracing engine, maybe I plan it out this time, draw some nice little pictures. Maybe it'll be a game. I dunno.
A few months later, I may have got bored of this....
depression
Bang... another great idea.
again and again this cycle.
I thought I just had depression.
Never noticed the cycle
I just realised now, in the shower that I was cycling like this.
Crap.
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