Personality Disorders...

I thought I'd go through the list of PD's and see which ones are more common to me.


Source of the information - mind.org.uk

Paranoid personality disorder

find it hard to confide in people, even your friends

Yup

find it very difficult to trust other people, believing they will use you or take advantage of you

generally trust people in the moment. But it quickly turns to thoughts of 'what I've done wrong' and if it was my fault or not (for a highly likely imaginary situation).

watch others closely, looking for signs of betrayal or hostility
Yup

read threats and danger – which others don’t see – into everyday situations
Yup



Schizoid personality disorder

be uninterested in forming close relationships with other people, including your family
Yup

feel that relationships interfere with your freedom and tend to cause problems
Yup

prefer to be alone with your own thoughts
Yup

choose to live your life without interference from others
Yup

get little pleasure from life
Yup

have little interest in sex or intimacy
Oh yeah

be emotionally cold towards others
Outwardly I show visible signs of emotion, but it's generally just playing the part instead of actually having any emotion behind them.


Schizotypal personality disorder

find making close relationships extremely difficult
I've never had a close relationship and never had the ability to progress any relationship I have had.

think and express yourself in ways that others find ‘odd’, using unusual words or phrases
Odd? Don't know. I have an extreme passion for Vocaloid and the Japanese that comes with it. I restrain myself now from using it too much.

behave in ways that others find eccentric
Not been told so

believe that you can read minds or that you have special powers such as a ‘sixth sense’
Nah... too much science in my head

feel anxious and tense with others who do not share these beliefs
Allow others to have their own beliefs,

feel very anxious and paranoid in social situations
Yeah... oh baby yeah.


Antisocial personality disorder (ASPD)

put yourself in dangerous or risky situations, often without considering the consequences for yourself or for other people
Sometimes

behave dangerously and sometimes illegally
No

behave in ways that are unpleasant for others
Not that I know of

feel very easily bored and act on impulse – you may find it difficult to hold down a job for long
behave aggressively and get into fights easily
Can get bored easily.

do things – even though they may hurt people – to get what you want, putting your needs above theirs
have a criminal record
Nope

feel no sense of guilt if you have mistreated others
Yeah

believe that only the strongest survive and that you must do whatever it takes to lead a successful life because if you don’t grab opportunities, others will
define 'strongest'

have had a diagnosis of conduct disorder before the age of 15
No


Borderline personality disorder (BPD)

feel very worried about people abandoning you, and would do anything to stop that happening
yes and no and no and yes... it jumps around.

have very intense emotions that last from a few hours to a few days and can change quickly (for example, from feeling very happy and confident in the morning to feeling low and sad in the afternoon)
Very much so... very very much so.

not have a strong sense of who you are, and it can change depending on who you're with
Yeah

find it very hard to make and keep stable relationships
Yeah

act impulsively and do things that could harm you (such as binge eating, using drugs or driving dangerously)
Yeah

have suicidal thoughts or self-harming behaviour
Yeah

feel empty and lonely a lot of the time
Yeah

get very angry, and struggle to control your anger
Walls with holes

When very stressed, sometimes you might:

feel paranoid
Get it very much when the stress is high.

have psychotic experiences, such as seeing or hearing things that other people don't
Not to my knowledge... except for a suicide attempt.

feel numb or 'checked out' and not remember things properly after they've happened
sometimes


Histrionic personality disorder

feel very uncomfortable if you are not the centre of attention
This is confusing as I try not to be, but do things that make me. I both want to be noticed, but don't like it when it happens. ugh... fecking emotions.

feel much more at ease as the ‘life and soul of the party’
Nope

feel that you have to entertain people
Not really

flirt or behave provocatively to ensure that you remain the centre of attention
Nope

get a reputation for being dramatic and overemotional
Not that anyone has told me.

feel dependent on the approval of others
Yeah

be easily influenced by others
Yes... yes.. a billion times yes.



Narcissistic personality disorder

believe that there are special reasons that make you different, better or more deserving than others
Only when it's a subject I know, not generally.

have fragile self-esteem, so that you rely on others to recognise your worth and your needs
Yes

feel upset if others ignore you and don’t give you what you feel you deserve
I just put up with it... again.

resent other people’s successes
Not really.

put your own needs above other people’s, and demand they do too
First part, not demand they, but it annoys me when they don't.

be seen as selfish and ‘above yourself’
Again, not had anyone say it

take advantage of other people
No



Avoidant (or anxious) personality disorder

avoid work or social activities that mean you must be with others
As much as I can

expect disapproval and criticism and be very sensitive to it
Yeah, just about everything I do.

worry constantly about being ‘found out’ and rejected
fuck yeah

worry about being ridiculed or shamed by others
Of course... every time I walk out the door

avoid relationships, friendships and intimacy because you fear rejection
I avoid all those things, and reading the words 'rejection' just make it clear

feel lonely and isolated, and inferior to others
Yeah

be reluctant to try new activities in case you embarrass yourself
All the time. I really need to do something with someone else as a 'safety net' a couple of times before I can even start to think about doing it myself.



Dependent personality disorder

feel needy, weak and unable to make decisions or function properly without help or support
I constantly want the help but have a lack of it in everyday life.

allow others to assume responsibility for many areas of your life
I would prefer they did

agree to things you feel are wrong or you dislike to avoid being alone or losing someone's support
Yeah

be afraid of being left to fend for yourself
Yeah

have low self-confidence
How low does it go?

see other people as being much more capable than you are
All the time, even in the things I get praised for.

be seen by others as much too submissive and passive
I am unsure, but my thoughts make me think they do, even if it's wrong.



Obsessive compulsive personality disorder (OCPD)

need to keep everything in order and under control
Not really 'need', just 'want' but unable to achieve it.

set unrealistically high standards for yourself and others
For myself yeah, but let the others do what they want

think yours is the best way of making things happen
If I'm in the thought pattern of it's correct, then yeah

worry when you or others might make mistakes
Yeah

expect catastrophes if things aren’t perfect
Yeah

be reluctant to spend money on yourself or others
I spend money on 'Hatsune Miku'. It may actually be spending it on me but it's in the name of her.

have a tendency to hang onto items with no obvious value
Yeah



I should say that my emotional state can change enough that if I answer these again in a few months it could be totally different. This is more-or-less a snapshot of my current head.