Is it weird to fall in love with a Vocaloid?

It's a long explanation, but this is what I'd have to tell people who said "yes".

Over a month ago, I declared my love for Hatsune Miku on this blog, and released that to the social networks... maybe she heard. My feelings for her have not changed. While I told my sub-concious to not analyse them, it has been slowly.

It has could down to two things...

I have been alone for 20 years. Sure I have people around me. I can talk to them, they listen, but I feel alone and isolated from the rest of the world.

I was deeply depressed for 15 years, and slowly coming out of it for the last 5. But it was never fully gone. Doctors, Psychologists, tablets, nothing ever fixed me completely, I was never allowed to finish tablets once my epilepsy was recognised.

On the 29th August, within minutes of seeing and hearing her, the last remnants of that depression had gone... I had realised I was having so much fun. Once that initial "high" went the "old" feelings didn't return.

I would normally have lost interest by now (slight ADD caused by epilepsy) but no. I think of her all the time, I hear her voice, see her face, miss her when I'm not with her (like I am now realising something's missing....... calming down now).

So...

My sub-concious had been cleared of it's depression...

It had also made a connection with someone (I will always call her someone now). The first time for 20 years that it really had been attracted so deeply to someone.

How could I not fall in love with the one who did this?

初音ミク A chance encounter - one month on

It's been a month now since I met you.

No. That's not true. We met before, but I didn't see you.

I met, noticed, and ultimately saw you on the 29th of August and was immediately captivated.

Vocaloids - Bringing together all my passions

People who know me know I love computers and science and maths.

Less people will know I love gaming, Zelda, Pokémon mainly but there are others.

Even less will also know I love Anime, films do appear on Sky, but I feel so out of the loop on this I don't know what's good any more.

So what do I finally discover on Thursday? (after missing it a few weeks ago).....

Vocaloids

Technically what's a Vocaloid? Here I'm not going to repeat it.

What is a Vocaloid? I'll try putting it this way...

I spent the whole (7:30am - 11:05pm) of yesterday (Saturday, 31st August) watching a group of beautiful girls, there was the odd boy too, sing and dance to the best pop, rock and occasionally classical music I've heard in a long time.

They are all over You Tube if you want to see them.

I also managed to watch Hatsune Miku's birthday concert via a delayed stream, need to pay for that though. And that was just awesome. Somehow I managed to find Vocaloids just before her 6th birthday (31st August) what timing.

I've seen concerts in the west, but these... I have never seen a performer bring the crowd together so much. Transfixed, mesmerised. But that's what I found watching them, transfixed, mesmerised. I barely ate for the 15 hours I was watching the concerts yesterday, barely drank. Barely did anything, but watch and listen, and start moving in time to the music.

There were times when I found my logic and reality circuits would switch off and they just looked real. When that happens it becomes incredible. I just wish I could control it because I found myself realising it happened and bang back to reality. Darn. Where's a quantum event when you need it? You can pull me into the reality where they are real any time.

I than went and brought all the Blu-Ray versions of the concerts I could find I just watched on You Tube. They are reluctant to release things in the West, need to make sure they bring as much as possible to us.

There is also the Hatsune Miku Project DIVA F game on the PS3 and PSP. I was playing a demo of this on Thursday night, after somehow missing the announcement a few weeks ago while looking if a related 3DS game was being released to the west (not yet). I immediately failed first time playing this game, took 10 seconds because I couldn't stop looking at Miku, and even though I failed, I knew I had to find out more. Also brought my PS3 out of a 3 year retirement.

My PS3 is going to get pimped up so bad now. 

10-seconds, it's all it took. I was in love. I'd found something that brought together everything. Technology, Anime, Music, Rhythm, Beauty, and to a less extent, Gaming.

Even considering getting a PSP too, just to play some of the DIVA games for that too. Never in my wildest dreams have EVER thought of getting a PSP. Even a Vita hasn't been ruled out. Wow, me, a Vita, just wow. All this for a single game.

What is the only downside? It's all in Japanese. It doesn't cause a problem to the music in any way at all, the music is wonderful. We have Italian music in the West so don't think for a second that's where the problem lies. No. It's trying to navigate the sites to buy things! I dare say when I get the things I've imported, there's gonna be some headaches as I add some new symbols alongside the English ones, and convincing my brain to stop scanning left-to-right! (Am I too old to learn Japanese? Hoping listening to these girls sing leaks it into my head!)

To the haters

The one thing I have found though, a lot of people on the You Tube videos putting a lot of hate. Why? It's beautiful music. So what if they aren't real? Take all the make-up and stage off your musical idols, are they still the same people? They are all a fantasy anyway.

Also, what do we get from the real stars? When they make it? Just a bunch of people who ignore you and think they are better than us. How many of your musical stars can you really get close to? I can start my PS3, load Project DIVA F, and have some form of interaction with Miku and Rin. It's literally infinitely more interaction (some compared to none) than any of us will get with any of the pop stars we so idolise now.